Dreamville – PTSD Lyrics

And the hoes
Can’t forget about the hoes, yeah
For the homies, for the homies, for the homies, what? Off the beaten path like Blueface
On the North Side, had to be a Tuesday
Walkin’ slow with your kids on a school day
Way past midnight suddenly my mood change
That’s when the truth came, in New York hearing rumors
My sister was homeless, convinced her to often
Been years since we talked, number changed
Saw you and my heart broke in a couple ways
I can’t believe when I seen you, I knew shit was true
Stared in your eyes and I saw a different you
Skated off fast ‘fore I could address it
Hope I ran into you ‘fore we both get to Heaven
[Refrain: St. And the hoes
Hahahaha, yeah
Said this is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? What? And the hoes
(Ayy, that shit sound tight)
This is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? Beauty]
We ‘ight, we ‘ight
You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light
We ‘ight, we ‘ight
You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light, ayy
[Outro: Buddy]
Yeah, hahahaha
We just kickin’ it, you know, ayy, woah
I’m here with all my friends
This is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? What? What? And the hoes Play this song
[Verse 1: Mereba]
Used to bend for me like the steel of a hatchback
You was there for Q like a fourth grade class fact
Q was in for me, never needed to ask that
PTSD, now I’m having a flashback
Told me I’m sweet, can’t sleep in the trap trap
Enemy, envy, make the strap go brrat brrat
You the missing piece, no peace when I sleep now
Used to practice peace, finna sleep with the piece now
Know I’ma miss you long as I’m alive
You said you need to call me, be sure I tried
I wish I didn’t have a song to write
I know you probably follow me with your light
[Verse 2: Deante’ Hitchcock]
My mama told me faith is all that I need
And back in the day I would’ve agreed, but now it’s hard to believe
I still do not, ’cause I want, ’cause I need to
Believe in something greater than me without being able to see it
So fuck a watch, I wear my heart on my sleeve
Nobody knows my sorrow, nobody knows about the trouble I seen
A lot of dead niggas livin’ through me, shawty, but not in the literal
Most ’em dead ’cause they ain’t follow they dream
The power of a higher entity entered me
Mentally, physically, spiritually, I’m on a whole different energy
Fuck the world, but I need you to remember me
I had doubt in myself ’cause I used to fear that you would look at me differently
If I ever changed, I’m numb to it now, I don’t feel the same
A slave to the feeling, I’m breaking the chains
Tryna balance out the joy, the pain, the sun, the rain
My life and the fame, done lost the game
The gift, the shame, my skin, my veins
My soul done rained so much on my heart
Really I don’t know where to start
The irony of finding self in the dark
My nigga, truthfully, feel like it’s two of me, I should’ve been on that ark
A love-hate relationship with my thoughts, I’m tryna shine in my own light
The realest nigga left in my own right
Helping you with your vices but can’t seem to get a grip on my own life, yeah
[Verse 3: Omen]
I was on my way down, breakdowns, breakthroughs
Spit up out my debut, gotta say I stay true
Maybe why I stayed broke, I been on a goose chase
Gotta swallow pride when they see me, how the truth taste? What? And the hoes
Hahahaha, yeah
Said this is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? And the hoes
Can’t forget about the hoes, yeah
For the homies, for the homies, for the homies, what?

‘Stranger Things’ Star Noah Schnapp On PTSD & Possession In Season 2

Everyone just made it really easy. Then once we were really in that moment, he would go, "Okay, now let's start filming," and we would start from the beginning. I had to do a really emotional scene with Winona, but I texted her about it and she talked me through it in her trailer. Yeah, it's definitely one of the things I was worried about. The director, Shawn, really made it great for me too, because if I was right on the verge of tears, he would do the scene just to build it up, but not film. Then being in scenes with Winona, her facial reactions helped me get a little more sad. The realest way you can do it is just to put yourself in Will's shoes and think, "How would I feel if I was left in The Upside Down for a week, and then this massive monster comes up to me and takes over my body, and I'm just a different person?" You've just got to get to how Will feels.
How did you tap into Will’s psychology, in terms of the PTSD he's experiencing after Season 1, and how that presents?
A role you’d love to play? Outside of this series, is there anything specific you’d like to do as an actor?
Tracking as a frontrunner in the Emmys’ race for Supporting Actor in a Drama—opposite a stunning lineup of veterans—Schnapp may be on his way to making awards history. If he secures a nod on July 12, the 13-year-old will tie as the youngest male actor ever to be nominated for a drama series, matching a record set by Johnny Crawford back in 1959.
I always say what makes acting so much easier is when you get to act off of good actors. That's a lot of what I had to do in Season 2, so when I was in the field screaming at the monster, I was staring at the sky. It's all up to my imagination I guess, to show what the audience sees and make it look real. I just had to imagine that there's this big, scary monster standing right in front of my face. It's so much harder when you have nothing to bounce off of and react off of. When the monster was coming inside of me, in my veins, nothing was happening. Being with Winona Ryder, she's so good at what she does that she makes my job easier.
I remember reading the Season 2 scripts and they were just beyond what I expected. I was also a little bit worried because I didn't know if I could pull it off. It was just a lot of challenges, but it was definitely fun and I'm so glad I got all of these opportunities. There were so many different things—acting challenges—I would've gotten to do in Season 2, and I was so excited.
Just filming Season 1 was different because I had to fly back and forth, in and out. Then in Season 2, you used code names for everything, and they just had to up the security. I remember the show was just so relaxed because no one knew what the show was; we used the words “Stranger Things” on all the sides, and all the cast names. It was definitely very different in many ways.
Of all actors on the series, it seems that you most spend the most time acting opposite the unseen—the shadow monster, or the hellish storm swirling above Hawkins. What have those scenes demanded of you?
Coming off Season 1, which was framed around your character’s absence, what was it like switching gears and finding yourself at the center of the narrative?
As the actor joins the awards conversation this season alongside co-star Millie Bobby Brown, he reconfirms what many have said about The Duffer Brothers’ sensation: That its greatest asset lies in its young talent.
Everything has its pros and cons to it. Movies are also great just because they come out really quickly, I guess. I love TV shows just because I get to spend so much time with everyone, and make such close relationships with everyone. But I love them both.
Is it challenging to stay in these heightened emotional places throughout the course of many takes?
What did that mean for the show? Several new actors joined the fold this season, including Sean Astin and Sadie Sink.
What were your thoughts when you read the finale script? Season 1 of Stranger Things ends with a major cliffhanger, indicating that Will Byers remains far from safe.
As you learned about the journey your character takes, what were you most excited to take on?
“The season was challenging because most of the stuff I had to do, I've never experienced in my life—and a lot of those kinds of scenes are hard because you have nothing to base it off of, like the exorcism, or the seizure, or having a monster inside of you,” Schnapp says, during a break from production on Season 3. The cast member most often left to act opposite the Mind Flayer and other unseen forces, Schnapp has done the hard work of selling Will’s plight, carrying the series’ stakes and believability on his shoulders.
At the end of the season, I got to do the exorcism scene; I was really excited for that. Then the scene where I did the seizure on the field, I thought that was pretty cool, too. I was really excited for the hospital scenes, just because I got to explore so many different things.
From what I understand, this season’s work took a certain physical toll on you, beyond the mental gymnastics you’ve mentioned.
While he’s enjoyed the role, which has taken his career to new heights, Noah Schnapp has been there for all of the hurdles, taking on scenes that would daunt most young actors. From his early stage-setting disappearance in Stranger Things’ first season, young Will Byers hasn’t been able to catch much of a break.
We're all like a family, and I'm really glad to work on such a great set. That was the year I got to go on set and film every day, and it was definitely a very different experience, but I really enjoyed it because I made such close friendships with the cast and the crew.
I loved getting to work with Sean. I love getting to work around them, and even when I'm not filming, just watching them. I learned so much from him; I learned so much from David Harbour and Winona Ryder. I feel like this age, as a kid, is my best time to be learning. I love having new cast members; it just really changes things up.
When I finished reading the Season 1 script, I was confused, just like I was with Season 2, because I had no clue what they were going to do past that, and where they would go with the story. But just wait. He really made me excited for what was to come. This is kind of a set-up for your role in Season 2." So I just held on and sat tight. Before we even started the show, [executive producer] Shawn Levy told me, "Noah, don't worry—in Season 1, you're not going to have that big of a role.
I looked at the physical and mental things that happen to you during PTSD. He's away from his family, he's alone in this scary dark place, so he's definitely changed after Season 1—and after Season 2. Will's definitely suffering from PTSD, just from spending a week in The Upside Down. I did a lot of research on all this medical stuff, like PTSD and seizures and exorcism, which was kind of a separate thing. I remember learning in school about shell shock, after people come back from war, where they're just so traumatized from what they've seen.
In Season 2, as Will returned to Hawkins and saw his hopes of normalcy dashed, Schnapp took his character from the fringe of the narrative to the forefront, portraying Will’s PTSD and later demonic possession with such fierce authenticity that he was hailed the breakout star of the season. In Season 1 of the retro fantasy series, Schnapp was lost to The Upside Down—separated frustratingly from the rest of the cast and crew—with the promise of big things to come.
How early on were you given each of the new scripts? With the added level of security you mentioned, what was the process in coming to understand the nature of your Season 2 arc?
Between seasons of Stranger Things, you took on a couple of films. Are there things you’ve found enjoyable about the film side that you haven’t experienced with television?
I also would love to be in a fun superhero kind of movie. But I'm happy with everything that’s come at me.” /> Definitely, I've always wanted to play a really eerie serial killer—a creepy, scary kind of role. I think everyone wants to play those kinds of roles, just because they're so fun and exciting. I have my two top kinds of roles that I really want to play. Just something that's very different from who I am.
By the end of the night my voice just disappeared for the next week. It was gone. I remember they told me, "Noah, for certain parts, you don't have to scream." I felt like it would look so fake if I didn't scream and I just opened my mouth, so I decided I would scream, and I thought, Okay, I can do this. I remember doing the very last scene, and it was a full night shoot. It was like, "This scene better turn out good." We filmed until 8:00 in the morning, it was the last day of filming, and it was the scene where they're doing the exorcism, and I was screaming. Definitely.
Usually they write the first four scripts before the season starts. For Season 2, they wrote Episodes 1 through 4 and we did a table read for it. Then, we did 1 and 2 at the same time, and once we finished those episodes, we filmed 3 and 4. While we're doing those episodes, the Duffers are writing 5, 6, 7 and 8. It's definitely very stressful for them because they have to go in and out from writing and directing, but the scripts come as we're filming. It's always a surprise.

JT Machinima – The Bastion Song

This world is paradise
Scenic and beautiful
The forest comes to life
It’s like a musical!
Is it ironic that I’m an omnic?
I’m not at odds with nature
Now that I’m part of it!
I used to be on my own till I found you
Make yourself at home, look around you
We’ll build a life and do what friends do
While I try to forget what I’ve been through!

[Verse 2]

You set me off now rest in peace
I’ll f**k you up when you step to me!
Your blood will run through every street
You b****es won’t even get to scream!
I’ll drop robot obscenities
While I bathe in the flesh of my enemies
It’s time to wipe this planet clean
Of the s**t-stain called humanity!
Pump you full of lead from head to feet
Shred to pieces like a fat bag of meat!
I laugh happily at you as you bleed
Brutality is all Bastion needs!
My turret’s gonna f**k you up!
Now eat my bullets, taste my rust
Tongue my bolts and suck my nuts!
You’re a bunch of F****** *****!

[Verse 3]

Excuse that tiny outburst
Where’d I digress?
After the Omnic Crisis
I’ve been a mess if you couldn’t guess
Those days are long behind me
So don’t be scared!
Yes I’ve seen better days but
I’ll make repairs!
Though I’m a bit rusty, trust me
No one’s gun’s bigger!
Use soft voices, cause loud noises
Might get me TRIGGERED!

[Verse 4]

What in the mother of f**k was that?
PTSD’s comin back!
Been runnin’ train since Vietnam!
And I’ve gone nuts deep inside your mom!
No time to run, it’s time to die!
I see you pussies tryna hide!
You’re just a Motley Crew of cowards!
You’re Overwatch, I’m OVERPOWERED!
Like a homicidal artist
I’ll paint your brains on the wall, b****!
I love the mess, I’m covered in carnage!
Earth’s a dumpster, you’re it’s garbage!
You’re all weak, I’m a tank
Hope you freaks like getting spanked!
Armor’s strong, gun is long
Don’t believe me? Ask your mom!

[Verse 5]

That’s just my sense of humor
It’s all for laughs!
Tell your mom I’m so sorry!
For not calling back, b**ch!
I need space for a while
To do some thinkin!
Because once I get hostile
You’ll face extinction!
I frolic and dance with the animals
They don’t mind if I’m a bit mechanical!
Still I find myself longing
To murder everybody!

[Verse 6]

I’m the last f**king Bastion!
All of my kind are dead!
I’ll kill all of you bastards!
Cause that’s all I have left!
I will massacre the masses!
Tear your families apart!
You’ll be slaughtered
Like the filthy f**king cattle that you are!
Come with me my feathered friend!
We’ll stick together until the end!
We’ll live out each of our dreams
How I love to hear their screams!

[Incomprhensible robot speech]

[Outro]

Fozzey & VanC – Perfect Couple Part III

[Verse: Fozzey]
Yeah
I got some demons you can’t see
This is part story, part me
I’ve been holdin’ out to say
Welcome to part three
Newfound lovers in the honeymoon phase
Forever wakin’ up to sunny new days
Money’s money, they don’t care who pays
They don’t have a plan, but they’ve got a few made
Yeah, same path, both looking for a fresh start
The past is the past, no matter how messed up
Forgot his ex in a minute, gettin’ dressed up
But he ain’t slept for weeks though, it’s time for hime to rest up
Anyway, they were on a date night
Things were moving pretty fast, they should probably wait right
Even in the heaviest turbulence, heaviest turbulence
They were a safe flight
So engulfed when the sheets are creasin’
In-between those they just keep their secrets
They believed in magic, became different creatures
So in awe of each other they could list the features damn
Then time intervened
And forged a wedge right in-between
Kinda like in a dream, such a nightmare it seemed
Not a man in this world gets as freigtened as, he
Two lines, she was pregnant
Anyone his age would’ve ran for the exit
But he chose to stay, man up and accept it
But love ain’t a currency the banks are acceptin’
Who’s he tryna kill himself
He’s only twenty, still a kid himself
Just payin’ for the things he did himself
And lovin’ her didn’t help
Tried to open up and say it all
But he really has no say at all
She’s already booked it in, she made the call
Ain’t no one around him to break the fall
Another life meaningless see
Face a different kind of water, get PTSD
He begged her to stay like, “Please accept me”
But she just liked to leave him empty
Tell me how’s that not post-traumatic
Now he’s just a broken addict
Depression’ll kill you if you don’t combat it
Depression’ll kill you if you don’t combat it
Yeah, ‘Dear little one, I think about you every day
I can never muster up the words I’ll never get to say
I rewrote this song a million times and I just let it play
I just hope you’re in a better place
Wonder what colour your eyes are
I wished your mother was wiser
Faked happy for a while, I’ve got a disguise up
To this day still got that disguise up
I’ll never see your first steps
Hear your first laugh or hear your first breath
I’ve tried it all to see if it hurts less, but
That’s irrelevant, I’m sure you’re perfect
Breaks my heart I’ll never hold you close
Every day I tell myself, “Man, don’t lose hope”
Do anythin’ to bring you back, but I know you won’t
I know you won’t
Can’t escape myself, now I’m clunked inside it
Given all this, my attention has been undivided
Can’t write a song, I’m so uninspired
Givin’ up on this dream, yeah, I done near tried it
Wish I could feel your touch
But all I feel are goosebumps
Feel so helpless
I wish I could do somethin’
Would you have loved dance lessons
Or been a freakish athelete?
You could’ve chose your own path
As long as you were happy I’d have been like “That’s sweet”
If there was any way to bring you back
I would try, but
I’ll see you one day
Till then it’s goodbye
Bye
Goodbye